A New Year

After a long hiatus from blogging I have decided to start writing again. Sometimes when personal things are going on I chose not to blog because writing allows me to express things that are not easily said, and honestly sometimes those things should not be said because they are too personal. Therefore the best way to close that door is to not write at all. But I feel that I'm in a good place once more and I am ready to go.

I have a lot of hope for 2012! Even writing it down looks good, don't you thing? 2-0-1-2
Ironically, this has already been a very difficult year and I have learned a lot of things that hopefully will help me be a better person. Here are some of the lessons I have learned:

1. I feel more compassion than I have ever felt for the "survivors" of traumatic experiences. Meaning the wife who saw her husband having a heart attack, the little boy who saw his sibling fall and pass out, the person walking by who saw a car accident and was the first to call for help, etc. I never knew how those experiences affect the people who may not have been the victim until I became someone who was not a victim but experienced the trauma in my own way. I had a lot of symptoms I recognized from post traumatic stress and it gave me a glimpse into a lot of people's lives.

2. Truly forgiving those who break your heart is possible. It takes time and a lot of prayer and soul searching but it is possible. I think I finally understood that to forgive something who has hurt you so badly you have to come to terms with the fact that it was the person's choice and you could not have done anything to change it. I think forgiveness is a lot more difficult to achieve if you believe that you have control over another person's actions and you can change them. You don't and you have to accept it.

3. When people make mistakes I will definitely think twice about how I react to it. As humans we all make mistakes and it is hurtful when those things are made into big issues because of anger and because people feel better when tell everyone about it. That is how rumors start and how stories keep growing every time they are told.  It hurts when people lie about you so we should all do our best to protect each other from such things and stop rumors before they start.

4.  It feels good to give even when people don't appreciate the gift. And if for some reason they do appreciate it, it feels good times two.

5. If you find the right person to spend the rest of your life with, getting old doesn't look so bad.

Here's to an amazing 2012!!!!